Why did you make the second half of the movie, if its the first half thats more where you were going?
I didnt say that I was going for the first half. You said that. I said that the second half and the first half work together well. The first half is more reflective of my a stronger reflection of my sensibility. But the film as a whole works juxtaposed together. Thats what I said.
I guess the question is why does it have to go there?
Why dont you just get to the point and just say why did I use sex in the movie? Why ask it in a vague way? Why dont you just ask me the same dumb question? You saw the film.
I was trying to ask it in the artistic context.
Im not an artist. I mean, why ask me in the artistic context? Im not an artist. I have never said once here today that I was an artist. Ive not given you the impression that I feel entitled as an artist, or that Im doing things purposely to be avant-garde or to be marginal.
Im moving toward love and hope and beauty. Im always doing things that Im assuming are beautiful and that a lot of people will find beautiful. Im disappointed and surprised when people dont find my idea of beauty beautiful. Im surprised, basically surprised.
Im not shooting for marginal levels. Im not shooting to do marginal work. And Im not motivated by provocative reactions. I mean, to make a movie takes years. I dont know what you do with your time and how hard you work on your work, but I dont think youd sit there and write for three and a half years and give up your house and your career and your money and youd go bald and go gray and have your prostate blow up, just to provoke people. I think youd have to be motivated by things that were really part of your interest, what you found beautiful. And to respond to the sex scene to somebody whos seen the movie in that way, just blows my mind.
Im using traditional iconic images. Pornography is the ability for somebody to have enhanced sexual pleasure or sexual fantasy free from responsibility, guilt, insecurity, consequence, etc. etc. What Ive done is taken those icons of pornography and juxtaposed them against responsibility, insecurity, resentment, hate, greed, mourning - together. Theres no way to separate them in my film. Theres no way to look at that scene and be titillated or sexually aroused. People who get off on pornography are revolted just by the kissing scenes because they cant take the level of intimacy and complex issues surrounding intimacy in that film. The graphic images are used to enhance those sequences.
Its like none of the things that Ive ever done in my life have been self-glorifying ever. Everything that I do is for personal sacrifice. I sleep on a miserably uncomfortable horrible bed because it looks good. For 25 f***ing years I sleep on that horrible bed with that Amish quilt because it looks good. I do everything in my life because I believe I dont give a f*** about my body, about myself, about my face, about my reputation, about anything to do with my career. I put the focus on things that I think are important and beautiful. And they transcend me. And my work is much more interesting than me.
To call that film narcissistic or self-indulgent because I multi-task? Do you think its fun to work without an assistant? Do you think its fun to work without support, a production office? To sit there in a f***ing van with three guys, driving through the desert? A van packed with camera equipment that I have to unload every day, that I have to fix every day, that I have to reload into the van because God forbid one of them should lift one f***ing case on the film? Do you think that was self-indulgent?
Matthew McConaughey does 600 pushups before he does his shirtless scene. I havent even worked with a f***ing make-up person in films. You think I made myself look great? Do you think its fun to show your c*** in a film for ten billion to scrutinize for eternity? Do you think I get off on that? I was interested in the film for the purpose of the film, and I moved past my insecurities, my self-doubt, my self-hate, my incredible privacy that I value. I pushed that aside to achieve the goals that I had in the movie. And I think theyre very clear in the film. I think if you see that film, its clear that my intentions were to create disturbing effects around intimacies both metaphysical and personal intimacies with this characters life.